For those who actually read my previous post and are wondering, Things did get mended up.
I've been much kinder to him, he's been as tolerant as he always is(which is extremely well, minus that one day), and the fact that our work schedules keep us from seeing each other much is actually really helping. I still have my fears, and I'm wondering if he has them as well, but we haven't spoken about them since that night. I honestly try not to think of them. When I let my fears take over who I am as a person, things turn ugly and end even quicker. Happened when I was with LS, I believe happened with 3 as well, and in other every day, non-relationship circumstances.
I just recently got over my fear of wearing wigs, that reminds me. (The night we had that argument I was wearing my wig, so I kinda associated the badness with the wig and didn't want to wear it again. Hell, I almost threw it out). I'm back to wearing one more often than not, back to cospunking and everything. The other day I cosplayed as Miku at a fair, only since I threw my pigtails out, I used one of my pigtails from a wine red wig, and got alot of compliments. ^^ I really love cosplaying and cospunking.
I've been enjoying my summer since then, working my ass off but still finding time for myself. I've seen a theatre production, gone canoeing, went on a cruise, free concerts, etc. and all has just been wonderful. I just got off of work from a 12 hour shiftt an hour ago, and I can't believe I survived XD But it was worth it, they really appreciated it(especially since I volunteered before they even considered asking), plus I think I got an hour of overtime snuck in. T'sall good yupyup.
I'm trying not to fall asleep for another two hours, so I'm trying to find things to do =w= I might go shoot some hoops after this post, since I have a basketball that I haven't gotten to use yet.
I just wanted people to know, if they actually read this, that I'm doing well and things are back to being sparkle-worthy.
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