Sasha Leigh Awkward

That's the name of my character for the improv final. A socially awkward girl who really annoys just about everyone around her and doesn't have a place in the world or the scene. How is that any different from me, you ask? Well, it isn't.

I've always felt that way, especially in Improv. I have the acting ability of a kumquat, my cleverness kicks in AFTER the scene I perform, and apparently I'm a bit too childish to be respected by people who are 1-2 years younger. Yeah, the people who probably already had sex, smoke, and have drank at least if not more than once feel they're superior to the genuinely individual, sex/cigarette/alcohol-deprived teen who chooses to stay away from said three things. Even the other 2 seniors in the class act like my superior, and they're no more important than anyone else. Hell, we just did a show about EQUALITY. Apparently that didn't sink in.

Then again, are they really my equals? They're younger, immature, most got into more trouble in 2 years than I have in 18. They give me attitude, give themselves attitude. They bicker to the point of Nova wanting to take them and knock their heads together. The worse part? They are the most selfish and disrespectful lot of people I've dealt with since kindergarten. Which is saying something.

It just irks me, to see how the youth is today. To see that most of them just throw their lives away without  a care. If I was like that, I'd be dead already. They lack common sense- that part of the brain was replaced with pervertedness and alcohol. And while it's not all of the youth(10+) I see, but it's a huge chunk of them. Call me an old soul, but I believe in a little thing called abstinence, modesty, self-respect.. I could go on.

What happened to the people who cared about succeeding? Who are perfectly fine with being themselves, even if other people aren't? The people who want to find genuine love, not just the easiest lay? It is a dying breed. A breed that I fear will collapse in a few years.