Sunday, August 12, 2012

Human.

I am
Lesbian
Heterosexual
Bisexual
Pansexual
Human.

Humans are capable of falling in love with anyone. Love is an uncontrollable emotion.
Humans, if lucky, only experience love once. If even luckier, they experience love through their entire life, one heart swell at a time.
I'm that unlucky human who gets shunned because my heart can hold genuine feelings for three men and a woman at the same time.
Why is polyandry shunned? It's all a part of being human. Perhaps because love can be a selfish emotion- "she's my girl, no one elses. Her heart and body belongs to me." Now that I don't agree with at all. My heart is my heart, my love my own emotion that no one can fully possess. I understand the body part, slightly- I wouldn't want my love fooling around with another. So, my view of polyandry in moderation:

It is acceptable if:
Both the female and her partners genuinely love each other
The most intimate thing done between the female and any of her partners is kissing
The partners all know each other and respect this decision, as they all love her

I would be all for this.Why? Because I genuinely love everyone who I have ever been in a relationship with, in the relationship sense. They have a part of my heart that will never permit family, or friends that are like family. Because they are more to me than that. They are the reasons why I smile, cry, laugh, and sacrifice my happiness. I doubt know that this is all one-sided, as no one could ever feel that way about me, and so my wish is short-lived. But if people could accept I'm in love with more than one person at the same time.. Perhaps I wouldn't have to be fake anymore.

Fake.
Yeah, fake. I fake smiles. Fake 'fake interest' in something, or casualness. Fake fake fake. Because a real heart is something that is shunned, I have to turn it into something fake.

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