Rambling.

Not sure where this ramble will go, so let's make the best of it, ne?

Heh, the first thing that popped in my head for this is actually when I would ramble to a certain person because they never answered my IMs. Who? Well, 2 of course. I would ramble about my day, what I ate, Hello!Project and anime,all because he never answered a 'Hallo mah friend, what's up?o2o' Or anything of the like. He never did reply after any of these, even though I tried to make them interactive by asking him a question or two during the ramble. Course that ended a loooong time ago, (around 2010, I think? ) And, to be honest, I can't remember speaking to him since.

OH WAIT. I lied, I did have a conversation with him after we both found someone else. And it was actually a decent, non-awkward, long conversation. That was the last time, I'm sure of it.

I don't even know where the hell this kid is anymore. I keep having random thoughts that he died. Is that bad? Well, I guess it would only be bad if I actually wanted the kid to die, but I don't. Every time I think about it, I realize I would probably be even worse off than I was saying goodbye to him as a friend. When that happened, my grades dropped, I wouldn't eat, and I just couldn't function. And then right after that I threw myself into every possible job and extracurricular protect(online and at school) that I could, which just wore me down even more. But if he died.. god, I wouldn't even be able to do that. I wouldn't be able to work, or sing, or hang out with people.. I would be completely 100 percent broken.

I was thinking of trying to visit the kid this summer, too, but I have so much going on that I don't have the time or the money to make a quick trip to TN. The trip would be closure and say goodbye for good(god, I'm talking about him as if he's already dead.) I mean, We haven't spoke for close to two years. Our friendship is not even a fragment of what it used to be.. And there's so many unanswered questions, on both of our ends. So if I could just go down there for like, a day, talk things over over coffee, then leave knowing exactly where we stand.. Okay, maybe it's a bit of selfish motivation. But eh.

There really isn't anything else to ramble about.. o2o I mean, I guess I could try and ramble about AnimeNEXT, or the crapload of TVA specials coming on this month, Or even how terrified I am of graduating or how hungry I am right now, but.. eh. =w=' I think I'll just go audio mix instead. Peace Meeps.