To Miss You

Is like disobeying my mind. To forget about you would be disobeying my heart.

Mind: The kid hurt you in so many ways, give up on him for good already! He's too much of a fucking prick to waste your friendship on.

Heart: I physically can't. I love him to the point of, if he ever ended up in the hospital and I knew, taking my Japan fund and using it so I can be there for him.

Mind: Be practical, hun. Visiting someone who really doesn't care about you and let your friendship die, or living your dream of going to Japan.

Heart: The friendship isn't dead, it can't be. We went through too much to just let it end.

Mind: He already ended it.

Heart: He saved my life. As far as I'm concerned, without him, I wouldn't even be alive to go to Japan.

Mind: All the more reason to go and forget about him.

Heart: I CAN'T. I physically can't.. I love him too much..

Mind: Enough to tell him all the stress you have bottled up reguarding everything that happened between you two?

Heart: ....

Mind: I thought so. Just let him go. You love someone else, you're fine without his friendship. It's over.

Heart: But to deny him would be denying the reason I'm still breathing. His friendship SAVED my life. I don't care that he's a bastard, I don't care that he's changed, I don't even care that I'll never meet him. I would give anything for his friendship again.

Mind: Fine, fine. But so help me god if you ever want to get back with him..

Heart: No way in Hello!Project! I'm with 1, and it was a mistake to leave 1 in the first place. Because I left 1, my friendship with 2 turned into something unbearable, something that killed 2 and my friendship.

Mind: Good. Ya know, you should talk to him. Call him up, make sure he picks up, and tell him you need to speak to him. You both still need closure and even if it's the last time you talk, you'll atleast have gotten everything off your chest.

Heart: You're right.. I'll try.