There's always that one simple thing that changes your outlook completely.

For me, it was the closest thing to a fight that I've had with him. Only two sentences.

And one word I refuse to repeat.The word makes me cringe, and the fact that it was used against me..

"If you call me that again I'm leaving."

I meant it. And right after, I cried. And cried. And cried. I've never sobbed so hard. He tried to console me, almost getting teary-eyed as well.

And then, one by one, all of my fears kept spewing out from my mouth.

"I'm no good for you."

"I don't want to drive you away."

"You don't deserve being treated like this."

"I'm sorry.."

I couldn't get through work without crying, no matter how hard I tried. Even now I'm still shaken.

Just a simple word made me terrified that our relationship was over. A single insult. A true insult. My fault. My fault. My fault.

I don't want to do anything but sleep and cry. I try to keep on a fake smile for work, for peers, for him. I need to make him believe that I forgive him.Make him believe everything's alright.

But I know it isn't.

I don't think it will be.